Looking in from outside

I am watching, always watching. I travel around trying to find someone to see me, hear me. I've lost track of where I am or even how long my search has been. I'm not sure I've ever known that,, sigh. So i watch and listen. I learn about the world and its changes. I might have sat in your living room watching a TV show with you. Did you feel me? No you didn't, but i was there.
I was thinking about some of those changes while I meandered down a road. I entered a town, I believe it was called Bon Tempts,when i began to feel a difference in the air. I don't mean the weather was changing or it was polluted, but the air seemed to be charged with events to come. I roamed around till i came to a public gathering place and i decided to enter and check it out. It seemed like the thing to do at the time.
I went in and looked around... I believe it is what humans call a bar, the name over head outside was Merlotte's. Sitting in an out of the way chair i began to do what i do best,,, watch. Somehow when i do this people don't try to sit on me. It is a mystery to me, but perhaps I'm just good at picking a chair no one else wants.
The first person that caught my attention was a young blond woman that fairly bounced around the room. She was vibrant and so alive when compared to the others in the room. I watched her while she served food and beer to the others sitting in the big room. The more i watched her, the more puzzled i became. You see her expression didn't match her feelings. The angrier or the more embarrassed she got the bigger her smile would get. I wasn't the only one that thought it odd. I began to catch the snide remarks that others said behind her back.
Suddenly a profound darkness entered the establishment. I turned and to my surprise it was a vampire. Now even in my detached state, I felt a heat in places that i didn't think worked anymore. He was tall and all muscle with blond hair down to his shoulders. He walked with the assurance that he would be welcome no matter where he went or if he wasn't welcome he would be able to take care of any trouble that came his way.
He walked over to the blond woman and started talking to her. I on the other hand was for once not listening but could only watch and what i was seeing was startling. As dark as his soul was, hers was the opposite. The light that i hadn't noticed before was all around her like a suit of armour. He lightly brushed her check with a finger and turned to find a seat. He waited, watching her every move.
I began looking around for her guardian. surely she had one. She was a creature of the light, at least part fairy. I looked at the bartender and noticed he was also watching the vampire and he didn't look happy. Surely this was the woman's protector.
The bar started to empty out and the woman,,,, ohh,,, Sookie is her name, continued to clean and fill the containers on the tables. Soon all where gone but the employee's and the vampire. Sookie went and got her things then went over to the vampires table. She ran a finger from his ear down his chin, his eyes where smoldering at her and he got up to leave with her.
Stunned that no one was stopping her I shouted as loud as i could.... NO.....
He turned,,,, The vampire turned and looked right at me,,,,, then he just smiled... and i went cold.
I stood up and watched as the blond giant escorted Sookie out of the bar. So many thoughts, so many feelings where rushing through me. I couldn't let him get away. He could see me!!!!!! I ran outside and followed them to a small red car. The vampire opened the passenger door and got Sookie settled into the seat. Closing the door , he turned and said to me softly "Lets see if you can keep up". He wore a small smile as he got behind the steering wheel and started the car and took off, spinning dirt back at me in the process. I'm not sure why my hands came up to protect my face, nothing touched me. I stood and stared after the car, all my focus on it.
Suddenly, i was in a small cramped space. What the hell!!!! It took me awhile to realise i was in the trunk of the car. Who ever designed this thing did not mean for people to be in the trunk!!!!! I had never been sick to my stomach before, but the feeling was defiantly present. Soon however the car came to a halt and i heard the doors open as the vampire and Sookie got out. As they walked away, I began to panic. I needed to find a way out. I poked and prodded then found and pushed on a latch and the trunk sprang open. That was one experience i never wanted to repeat. I went through the motions of brushing myself off. I'm not sure why, no dirt ever clung to me. Looking around i saw that they had pulled up to an old house. I walked around and found a door partially open. Looking down i noticed a small piece of wood blocking it from closing all the way. Very carefully i opened the door and went in. I roamed around the house, noting it was old but well kept and very clean. The furniture worn but comfortable. I turned around and there was the vampire, bending over to put flame to the wood in a fireplace. Stepping forward I asked, "Who are you?
The vampire turned and looking me in the eyes " I'm hurt lover that you don't remember me, surely I am somebody one doesn't forget after death." Stunned I just stared at him. "What do you mean? I'm not dead." I tore my gaze away looking around for Sookie. Reading my body language he said, "Sookie is upstairs in the shower, she will be expecting me to join her." I sank down into the nearest chair. It was all making since. No one seeing me, no one hearing me, I was dead. The vampire was watching me, noting my expressions, " I'm surprised it took you this long to find Sookie." "Find her? What do you mean? Please explain? A big grin lite his face and he said "Wait, watch and listen, I will answer what questions i can later." With that he turned and went upstairs.
Now I'm not really that naive, but for some reason i gave no thought to what would be happening upstairs. Slowly I got up and followed him up to the bathroom. I was still lost somewhere in my thoughts when looking up I froze in place. OK ok , Its wrong but If you looked up and saw a what I did you would be turned to stone also. There was this amazing looking man standing behind a beautiful woman. He was soaping up her breasts with one hand while the other was down stroking the center of her womanhood. His head bent down to the side of her neck kissing her from her earlobe down along her shoulder. He picked up his head to change to her other ear and his eyes found mine. I couldn't look away. It was like he was doing it to me. Heat rose up from my center strong and urgent. My heart beat painfully. Suddenly my attention was caught by its beat. Do the dead have heartbeats. I did. Maybe i wasn't dead after all.
A noise came from the shower. I looked up and saw that Sookie had turned around." Eric, what am i to do with you? " she said as she bent down to swipe her tongue across the tip of his penis. Eric his name was Eric, well that was one question answered. I admit it, I watched as she took him into her mouth, fascinated despite myself. My mouth opened as I imagined it was me taking him in. Eric kept looking at me and then Sookie. It wasn't long before he reached down and picked her up by her waist and wrapped her legs around his,settling her down on his hard prick. Sookie and I both whimpered at the same time. It was beautiful. Eric did all the work. holding Sookie as she arched back while he pounded into her. Eric took one last look at me before he lowered his head to Sookies breasts. Sucking then biting first on one then the other as he brought her closer to release. My breaths where coming in short gasps. I thought i was going to ignite right there. Just as her muscles started to tighten in anticipation he bit down on one of her nipples and drew her essence into himself. Sookie came, Eric came, OMG did i cum? Our cries all mingled as we all came together. Leaning against the wall I watched as Eric cleaned Sookie off then gently toweled her dry.
Released,, horror of what I had done flooded over me, I turned and ran downstairs to the living room. I couldn't sit still so I walked around the downstairs of the house. From the sounds coming from upstairs the scene in the shower had only been a warm up. I wore myself out passing back and forth so that after awhile I was sitting on the couch with my eyes closed.
I didn't hear him, but i felt him as he approached. Opening my eyes i watched him sit down beside me. "lover its been quite awhile since I last saw you. I knew when i found Sookie you would be along soon." I frowned "what do you mean, I don't understand." There was a note of desperation in my voice. " I know you don't, I'm going to tell you a story that happened quite a long time ago now.'
It was just over 200 years ago in a village somewhere north of England. The village was full of poor, hungry and very superstitious people. At that time I didn't have consistent source of blood so I fed off the villagers and they where starting to notice. I was getting ready to move on when i saw her. She was standing on a rock with the wind in her hair looking off into the darkness. The wind was pushing her clothes close to her skin revealing how high and proud her breasts where. He waist tapered down to a tiny waist and her skirts flared giving testimony to her incredible hips. Her hair seemed to glow in the darkness. Its color so pale, almost white. I knew I had to have her.I approached her cautiously, not wanting to scare her, but as I drew near I realised she was already afraid. I could smell the adrenaline rushing through her veins. I made a noise, to announce my presence. Swinging around she lost her footing and i caught her before she fell off the rock.

As I listened to Eric tell of meeting the woman, something strange began to happen. I was remembering the story from another point of view,, her point of view ,,,, I was her.

I was afraid, the town was afraid, they where sure a witch was among them. How else could this strange sickness be overtaking the village. Strong men where becoming weaker, falling ill, when they had never been ill before, The crops where not being attended to and the animals where suffering from neglect. They where sure there was a witch in town and my name kept coming up. Yes i was sick, yes i was possessed by the devil, I had to be, otherwise how could i hear their thoughts? How did i know what they where going to do before they actually did it? Yes, tonight was the night they where coming to get me, I had made up my mind to run. I wanted to live not be burned on the pyre. Suddenly there was a cough behind me and i swung around. I misstepped and would have fallen off the rock but he caught me. I was pulled tight up against his chest and he laughed as he looked down at me. Looking up at him, a God, tall, blond, and eyes to get lost in, they where so blue. I forgot everything i was afraid of in that moment, he was everything, the world was silent and beautiful.
He lowered his head as if to kiss me and i realised my virtue was at risk, I struggled and cried out " please sir, please you must put me down" His head raised and he looked confused. slowly he lowered his arms and i stepped away. At once i was bombarded with angry thoughts, thoughts full of death, they where coming for me. In a panic I looked up at this stranger and asked "will you protect me sir? the town is coming to put me to the pyre. They think I'm a witch" A huge smile lite up his face and he pulled me to his chest and said don't look up. The strangest feeling came over me. My feet where off the ground and the wind seemed to increase. I felt like i was flying through the air. I relaxed against him, I realised that for the first time in my life I wasn't' being flooded with others thoughts. It was so relaxing i fell asleep. A hand on my shoulder woke me up to find i was standing on solid ground again. " what God are you that you can block out the voices and fly through the air" i asked." I am not a god the man answered. He forsook me a long time ago." stepping back I felt my fear return. "Then you are the devil come to claim me?" laughter rang out loud and clear, "I have been called the devil many times, but I don't claim that name for myself, I am called Eric and i have already claimed you."
Fear spiraled out of control and i turned to run, he was there in front of me his arm around my back pulling me to his chest again, a finger lifted my chin so that my eyes would meet his. The pressure increased in my head but stopped soon after. Puzzled Eric asked " what are you?" misunderstanding i replied" I am the youngest daughter of the farmer Townsend" Eric's hand turned to cup the side of my face. "You are more then that. Much much more" his head lowered and he seemed to smell me. A feeling i had never felt before was flooding my body. My breath coming in short gasps. "Please sir" my voice wavered. "please what?" there was a smile in his voice. I couldn't answer him, a small cry escaped as his mouth touched the pulse at my throat. The next thing i could remember, i was lying on the ground totally naked, and he was over me kissing all resistance away. My body was on fire and strange little whimpers kept coming out of my throat. His hand pulled my legs apart and when i would have closed them inserted a knee to keep them apart. His hand sought my core. Pleasure like I had never imagined surged through my body making my back arch pushing my breasts firmer to his mouth, which was busy sucking on a nipple, small bites enhancing the pleasure. As he rose up and spread my legs further panic threatened to over come me. He caught my mouth with his kissing me his tongue doing strange things with mine, easing the panic. Something nudged at my center and entered slowly till it found resistance, my back arched again and Eric's mouth found a breast to nuzzle, When i relaxed again, he withdrew and surged forward, pain blossomed in my breast and core at the same time, with in seconds it turned to pleasure as he buried himself deeply into me. He continued to feed at my breast while his hands went to my hips to guide them into a rhythm as ancient as time itself. Soon I was following him on my own, he released my nipple and a hand came to the back of my head pulling it to his chest, "Drink little one" he said and a cut appeared on his chest just below his nipple. Lost in passion i laid my lips to his chest and sucked. He cried out in pleasure as he increased the pace of his thrusts. Everything shattered as my world spiraled out of control. Eric buried himself deeply and his great body shuddered. He lowered himself down beside me and looked at me waiting.

Slowly I returned to the present my mind excepting that I was that girl in a time so different then today. Looking at Eric, I blushed as I realised I had been his. "you bound us together with a blood-bond". It was a statement not a question. "To be honest, I only knew that I wanted you to be mine and in my world a blood bond is the strongest tie between mortals and immortals" Eric replied." I had rescued you but i was taking you into a world just as dangerous as the one you where leaving, there could be no mistaking who you belonged to"
Sitting there i thought about what i had learned. My last name was Townsend but i still had no idea what my first name was. Startled I looked at Eric. "You didn't even know my name when you took me" i accused. "how barbaric is that?' Eric burst into laughter, "I wish i could kiss you lover, you haven't changed. I lost count the number of times you said that very thing to me over the years we where together. Stay here and watch over Sookie, that is your job after all. Come to me tomorrow evening and i will tell you more." With that said he was gone.

I spent the rest of the night wondering around the house getting to know it, checking on Sookie and rehashing what i learned in just one night. Questions sprang to mind with no one around to answer them. I thought about Eric and the feelings he invoked, both fear and lust. Somehow I knew the fear sprang from direct knowledge, just as the lust did. I laughed as I remembered calling him a god. We obviously where ignorant people when i was alive,,, There was that word again, alive, that could only mean that i was dead now. What a thought, if i was dead then y was I here and not wherever dead people go? The more i thought the more antsy i became. I couldn't just sit here doing nothing. The sun was up and it looked like a nice day, so i went outside and started walking not really paying much attention to where i was. After a couple minutes i realised i was standing in the middle of a graveyard nestled under the trees.

Suddenly i heard a pop and standing right in front of me was this incredibly tall and very beautiful woman. "hello" she said in an almost irritatingly cheerful voice. wary I said hello back. "so what do you think of Sookie" she asked " I think she is delightful"

I was at a total loss for words. It took a few tries but after finding my voice i asked "who are you?" "Well I'm Claudine, Sookies fairy godmother" she replied "See the ears?" with that she pulled her hair back to reveal her pointed ears. "of course you are " i replied. I was proud that i could respond although it sounded a bit weak even to my (puts hands to ears) non-pointed ears. Claudine just kept talking like nothing was wrong "We where starting to get worried about you when you didn't show up as soon as Sookie got involved with a vampire. Didn't you feel it? No? Well your here now thats all the matters. It time you started helping to keep her safe. I mean really! Everything has been left up to me all this time. Not that i minded so much but it will certainly make things easier now that your here."

Suddenly I couldn't hear her. There certainly was no stopping her. I couldn't get a word in and if I could there where so many questions, no way could i have gotten one out. they where all just a big jumble in my brain. As i struggled to regain contol, I latched on what Claudine the fairy was saying. ,,,,,, your father pledged you to protect one of Nialls' family when the need arose,,,,,, well this is it, and more then that you should know the danger Sookie is in, since you lived it. I mean really!!!!!

"MY father did what? What are you talking about? You haven't made a bit of sense since you opened your mouth. Could you please slow down and explain what you are talking about?"

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